Buying a House

or preparing to, is a rather frightening, life altering, enormous, rather disordering thing. Looking through ones finances, which are embarrassingly small and unlooked through, trying to put together a list of what needs to be paid each month, which is a frighteningly huge amount, and trying to keep the garden planning to a bare minimum before I know I am actually going to have one, which is damn near impossible, are all the order of the day. Combined with fighting with my wife, crying at the drop of  a hat, feeling all disturbed and somewhere else most of the time, and in turns not eating and not sleeping (at least they don't occur simultaneously for some reason). I'm a slight mess, as you can probably imagine.

The handmade life and vision of living with the land and plants and animals through the experiments, skills, prayers, and creativity that we can muster up to create beauty in the small piece of earth we call home is about to become one step closer to true. After almost 10 years of dreaming about it, it is possibly going to find root, or seed, and begin to actually grow in the actual earth. I am a slight mess, as you can probably imagine and am taking refuge in making peach pies and plum butter and apple butter and apple cake and apple sauce so that the bounty of this season right now right here does not go to waste.

Oh, and the 25 tomato plants are still doing fine and producing happily. We have three actual eggplants growing and I am going to plant some lettuce. For dinner, I am making tomato-thyme stuffed sourdough flatbread with lebanese Labneh cheese and olive oil cured eggplant tonight. WIth Peach Pie for dessert. So is this life, great huge choices and decisions and then dinner. Trying to build a relationship with the food culture here as well as the food itself and where it comes from. Most preferably, in our backyard, is fraught with both such moments- it is that big and that small, that life changing and that every day. Somehow, we live our lives in the tension between, fighting, playing, making love, making choices, and offering as much beauty to the world as possible.

I'll post pictures of the house when it is ours. Wish us luck!